Sunday, January 19, 2014

There's always tomorrow

happiness
I so adore this moment I captured between my two girls
best friends SAR Boise SAR Boise SAR Boise SAR Boise SAR Boise

Kevin has found the local K-9 Search and Rescue group here and we made our first trip (of many) into the Boise wilderness. The children and I love our exploration time as Kevin and Nara get the training they need. Not to mention that I feel safe to be a bit more adventurous knowing that the SAR team is nearby if we needed them.

It started snowing as we were driving to the SAR location, almost causing us to turn around and head back to Mountain Home, but thanks to Kevin's perseverance we made it. It was a lot warmer back by our house so I didn't have us properly dressed but we survived. The snow stopped about twenty minutes into our visit and quickly started melting. The children and I ended up hiking in a lot of slippery mud and needless to say, ended up covered in mud from head to toe - myself included. We must have looked pretty silly as we walked through the grocery store later on after the training completed.

Despite the pains of moving and a new way of life, my girls relationship with one another is growing by leaps and bounds. It's amazing to watch them become closer right before my very eyes. They are genuinely enjoying each other's company. K is really stepping up as a big sister and her example has C doing the same for Little L. They truly are becoming best friends - something I have been working on with them since C was born. That is one of my biggest desires for them and I hope it lasts their whole life through.
Oh, and just so you don't get the wrong idea - YES! They still quarrel and fight and no it's not perfect, but it's different now. They seem more aware of each other's feelings and work through their issues faster and more lovingly.

My melancholic temperament ended up winning today as I was dealing with a family member struggling with depression. I feel awful for what they are going through but I admit I tend to see the pain it inflicts on us instead of through the eyes of the person going through it. I need to work on my own attitude when this comes around and try harder to be more sensitive and compassionate. But it can be so tricky at times when I see my children's feelings hurt, this Mama bear just lashes out.

There's always tomorrow.

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jennifer holle · 584 weeks ago

<3 I love and miss you all so so much. I love to read your posts. If you ever need/ want anything from PWS or Portland in general, let me know and I will get it to you. XOXO
1 reply · active 583 weeks ago
Thank you, Jen!! We miss you guys <3 I hope we can come back home for a visit soon!!!
Yes. :-) I once saw an advertisement for Chaco sandals (back in the old days when they were made in CO), that said something along the lines of having a season pass to life. There is, generally, always tomorrow, always a chance to do better or catch up.
1 reply · active 583 weeks ago
Beautiful post.
1 reply · active 583 weeks ago
Depression is a horrible beast of a thing. It steals away the very soul of a person. And being the outsider looking on, it's very hard to not say, "snap out of it!" But I've been that person battling depression. It's near impossible. It takes a very kind and compassionate person to love someone with depression.
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I am so sorry you have dealt with it yourself.<3 I was just so fortunate to chat with a dear friend who battles with it, too. Her battles and insight have helped me to handle it better (at least I hope!)
Those photos are so precious, and your story of how your girls are strengthening their relationship is heartwarming. We moved across country a few months ago, and I am seeing that with my children, too. I am like you - it has always been my wish for my children to be best friends, and to deeply love one another, and know that they are loved in return. And of course there are still some squabbles - but that happens. So yes, the bond developing between the children is, I suppose, the silver lining on the cloud of missing friends... that is how I am looking at it. You mentioned depression... my heart goes out to you. Please know you are not the only one who has ever dealt with that, and it can be so, so hard on the ones close to the depressed one. It truly takes extra strength and love. And I totally know what you mean about the 'Mama Bear' instinct. So hard to find balance with all of that... but you always seem to have such a big heart, a beautiful spirit, and so much compassion... I say these things because over the years of reading your blog, these qualities you have have really touched me. I wish you the best.
1 reply · active 583 weeks ago
Oh Stacey, thank you for all of your words here. You don't know just how much they mean to me!! I am beginning to see how this move was very needed.

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