Frontier Dreams: In gratitude

Monday, June 1, 2015

In gratitude

I want to thank all of you for the incredibly kind feedback you have given me in response to my last post. I deeply appreciate all your comments and emails. Words can not say how much all of your comments touched me. Seriously, you reached my inner core. Thank you so very much from the bottom of my heart for your support, encouragement and for having the courage to share your own journeys. I know I am not the only one you touched. You are all such an amazing community and I feel so very blessed and honored to "know you" through this little space online.

Knowing that your prayers are with me makes this heaviness I carry seem so much lighter. Please know I am including all of you in my prayers, too. There is so much power in that.

Rhonda mentioned fostering and I am so glad that she did (thank you Rhonda!)! My heart is very open to the idea of fostering as well as adopting. I have wanted to adopt ever since Kevin and I lived in South Korea (about 10 years ago). I was pregnant with K at the time. We had to have an ultrasound done while we were there and were far enough along to find out if the baby was a boy or a girl. Curiosity got the best of us, so we decided we wanted to find out. We had to speak through a translator but we begged and begged the doctor to tell us and he kept saying "No". Finally the translator explained to us that the doctor refuses to tell parents if their baby is a boy or girl because the mothers would abort the baby if it was a girl. My heart literally fell to the floor. I stopped begging him and respected him incredibly for taking a stand the way he did (although he eventually did tell us we had a girl).That moment is forever engraved in my mind. Every time I think about those girls my heart breaks all over again. I made a vow that I would return there someday and adopt at least one baby girl (I was informed that most girls that do make it to birth are abandoned). Unfortunately I can not seem to get Kevin on board with the idea, but I am still holding on to hope!

And not very related but absolutely adorable - The photographs above were from a mini rescue of Killdeer babies today. Are they not the cutest things ever?! It's such a gift to get the chance to help such small things!

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Megan · 513 weeks ago

Whatever happens with the adoption decision is what is meant to be. Things happen for a reason. I really believe it. I know you and Kevin will come to the decision that works for your family so that all hearts will be at peace. I'm sending you virtual hugs from this stranger in the mean time. You are a total inspiration to me both as a parent AND a crafter. I check in with your blog nearly daily with my cup of coffee in the dark before anyone wakes up, just to set the mood for my day. Thank you for being you.

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savourofsalt 33p · 513 weeks ago

I hope you will be helped to come to the right decision for each of you as a little family. I know how much I longed for a sibling for Abi and after several years were blessed with one. Take care. x

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Jen · 513 weeks ago

Tears sprang to my eyes when I read this, particularly when you wrote about the doctor making a stand in his own part of the world. What a touching post.

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Jen · 513 weeks ago

Tears sprang to my eyes when I read this, particularly when you wrote about the doctor making a stand in his own part of the world. What a touching post.

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Frau Kirschkernzeit · 513 weeks ago

Adoption came to my mind too when I read your latest post, but I didn't dare to mention it somehow. But as far as I can judge it through your writing I belive that you are an incredibly sensitive and caring mother who has a heart full of love for her children and for people and all living creatures as well and I am sure every child that is blessed to grow up with a mother like you is a lucky one, so adopting or caring for a child that was born in difficult circumstances could really be a wonderful thing in your case... But I understand your husband as well. And he seems to be such a great dad, so I am sure he has his reasons not to choose this path. But people change and maybe he'll change his mind someday, who knows? I wish you the very best, you and your great family!
Bora from Switzerland

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Frau Kirschkernzeit · 513 weeks ago

Oh yes, I forgot; what a terrible thing to read about those corean baby girls! I can hardly cope with peoples remorselessness and to know that there are thousands of children -beeing born or in their mothers bellys- who suffer unbelievable pain, hunger and fear because of other people that don't care at all about them, makes me sick... How wonderful when there are poeple like that doctor who really try to make a difference! Then there might be hope after all...

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Natalie · 513 weeks ago

I dream of bringing abandoned children into my family too. There are so many children needing a home and we still have so much love to share. Someday perhaps (though honestly I would love to adopt as an infant and soon so I could breastfeed but we need more time before we consider adding to our family).

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jenlynheb 49p · 513 weeks ago

So so so adorable! :)

It is so terribly sad that any mother would ever want to rid herself of any child. it also never made sense to me in the usual logical / scientific way either way. We need girls. Silly.

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